Earlier Before

"i'm not a good cook. i can cook good, if there are proper and polite feedbacks from person who enjoy my meal.. if the feedback is anger, hatred, i have to stop cook. i'm not afford to cook with over-style from my ability. i'm a simple cook. i can't put unknown ingredients into my cook.. i may, but takes time to experience the taste.

if i ask someone to cook, i ask a simple thing - don't put something that i don't want.. because the one that i forbid is very sensitive and hurt me deeper inside.. if, the cook still put something i don't want, i assume the cook want me to feel sick.. so, what i'll do, i prise the cook no more.. i'll critic, i'll mock the cook. "

20th February.

Mohon Petunjuk

"...Istikharah semakin popular di dalam trend yang tersendiri. Ia diamalkan bagi ‘memaksa’ Allah membuat pilihan untuk mereka. Berbekalkan kejadian persekitaran atau mimpi yang disangka petunjuk, kadang-kadang ‘pilihan Allah’ itu adalah tunang orang, suami orang, malah ada juga isteri orang. Bertindak atas nama ‘petunjuk Allah’, tercetus permusuhan sesama anak Adam."

"Pertimbangkanlah… seandainya pilihan yang disangkakan petunjuk daripada Allah itu mencetuskan mudarat, permusuhan, meninggalkan yang afdhal dan mengambil yang mafdhul… berhati-hatilah."


ABU SAIF

The Forgotten Hikers

u have seen a beautiful mountain from a terrifying jungle while your teamates leave u suddenly. u've seen a person who on a journey to the mountain and beg to take u there. he knew two persons to the way up is very risky, could be killed anytime. but, for u is everything.

on the gorgeous hill, u seem happy without knowing the burden of the person has been sacrificed. how a massive energy to pick up. mighty efforts to keep in pace. danger is everywhere. it seems all the burdens lost out of the wind, feels like doping drugs and being in a dreamed after seen the beauty of the mountain.

up there u met other hikers, and glad with them. they are creative and fun all the time. u managed to get through and stay there for moment. however, one day u took unknown advice from a hiker. fantasizing stories, hallucinating ideas. after a while, u forgot everything about the person who sacrifices for u. u ignored him for quite some time.

one day, u felt bored, u feel anger. u feel not easy with him who always keep in track. u hate this. out of no where, the person who help brought u suddenly been ask to leave the beautiful mountain. he shocked. and ask why. hundreds of questions without proper answer. u kept silent and asked him to leave to the mountain.

on the way down, u kicked him till fall down from the mountain.

he is sick. he in painful, bleeding, broken, and some parts of his body ripped off...







can you get how he feels right now?
u think he will not hates u?